do i get so wrapped up in a person when it becomes apparent that there’s something there to the point of feeling the need to talk to them ALL the time and either driving them away or getting bored with them really quickly?  why am i so terrible at moderation GENERALLY? 

in other news, i made my recipe for the week. delicious nutritious chicken a la criolla in the crockpot. have totally stuck to my no-fried rule and went to classes at the gym monday and tuesday. can’t today or tomorrow, but that’s what the weekend is for. allegedly.

after this week, things will calm down a LOT at school. i cannot wait.

This week my goal is not to eat anything that is fried.

Focusing on eating well this week and getting my comment done.  

Today, that means:
Breakfast = low-fat peach smoothie with berries
Lunch = some leftover spaghetti with meat sauce (made with 93 percent lean beef) and an apple
Snack =  Banana
Dinner = Some of the crockpot chicken tacos I made last night (just chicken, salsa, cilantro and spices) on whole-wheat tortillas with avocado.
Dessert: Hot chocolate (gettin’ that water in) 

Also, off to the gym after classes for a spin class.

POSITIVITY.

for winter break.

ended it with my favorite females, for “bookclub” and secret santa exchange. i got my secret child a well-thought out gift while maintaining the budget of $20, including a subscription to rolling stone, a cute pink and green sequin top from urban outfitters to wear to shows and some gray sparky knee socks to wear under boots from the same. it’s amazing how fun it is to shop for a girl who’s a size small (and even that was a little too big at urban outfitters, which is ridiculous for a 5’8” girl).

i also got some grades today from last semester that really surprised  me - i totally thought i blew it, but i did way better than i thought. it’s very weird. i’m not used to consistently doing well in school, at least not since high school. not like it’s gotten me a job yet, but positivity!

going back to richmond tomorrow and i need to hammer out this comment. besides that, jersey tomorrow, a friend’s birthday party friday, and going up to northern virginia saturday to spend the night in bed with my current friend for playing.  wish i had some extra time to get that comment done though, boo.

Had a slow start today, hard time being motivated (mostly because I hate this comment I have to be writing). Tomorrow is a new, healthy day that will be productive (especially on this stupid comment).

It was my brother’s birthday and we went to Outback - there is NOTHING totally healthy there. Granted, I could have made a better choice (like the seared ahi tuna) instead of filet foccacia sandwich, but at least I got a salad?

Tomorrow will be better. In terms of my other goals, I am doing well, as much as I can when I’m going to be spending a lot of time on writing this comment the next 10 days.  I had to drive to the post office today and found an old country cd from high school and sang with it, which was fun and made me feel younger. =)

Also, I saw this really cute craft on pinterest where you get a jar and write happy memories on it throughout the year, then read them all on new years eve (or thereabout). I would love to do that. Right now, I’d include:
New Years Eve with Kelley, Bridget and Kacee rolling my way into 2012 while dancing my ass off to Datsik.
Doug’s 20th birthday party at Outback and then cake with all of his ridiculous 20-year-old football/tough guy friends. 

So I mostly just use this bloggy as a way to repost all my favorite hilarious or adorable posts from my favorite tumblr blogs. I hope to change this a bit in 2012. Although it seems at times to me indulgent to constantly write about my life and all of its trivialities (not to mention how emo it makes me feel when I’m writing about not happy things), I think it might be nice to have a little journaling/written expression going on in my life this year. Because this year, I want CHANGE.  I want my life to be the best it can be, and for me to be the best I can be.  This doesn’t mean that I want to be the best law student in the world, which was what I felt last year consisted of way too much. I want to live my life as balanced as thoroughly and as well as possible. I want to stop worrying about my significance (this is going to a recent dearcoketalk post) and just focus on what makes ME happy. Since 2011 resulted in my new singledom, there is no better time. AND I can’t pin all of my happiness on doing well in law school, because that is just lame and unexciting.

“Pursue happiness instead. Find peace in your insignificance, and just let your anxiety go. Learn to savor the likely truth that the sum total of human achievement won’t even register in the grand scheme, so you might as well just enjoy whatever talents you have. Use them to make yourself and others happy, and set aside any desire to be great or outstanding.” (from dearcoketalk on tumblr)

This is what I want to do.

I ushered in 2012 with a few of my girl friends at a dub step show, feeling AWESOME, dancing myself clean of the past year and raging my way into the new. It was amazing. I had energy humming from within me and all around me all night, and fell asleep (miraculously) that way. This morning I woke up feeling refreshed, hopeful, and determined (although let’s be honest - I was still drained from so much dancing and intoxication so I did a lot of relaxing once I got home from Charlotte). 

With no further ado, my resolutions for 2012:
1. CARPE THAT FUCKING DIEM. Every day.
2. Learn to accept that I will take up space, but work for a body whose space consumes and functions in a healthy way. I have my plan in mind for this. Take time to think about the choices I’m making in eating.
3. Continue the recent quitting of smoking.
4. Take time to take care of my body in terms of preserving its youth and alleged beauty - moisturize, moisturize, moisturize! Maintain my nails, maintain my hair, take care of myself. It sounds so stupid, but it’s easy to let things go during law school. GET ENOUGH SLEEP.
4. Attend a live music event once a month. It is so good for the soul.
5. Run a 10k by the end of the year - without stopping, without walking.
6. Do one craft or try one new recipe each week.